"I was. I killed him. Twice technically. But he is remarkably difficult to kill so I married him." And she missed him more than she thought possible after their time on Darillium.

"He's lived longer than most of us can dream of living, my murderous history not withstanding, and it took many years, and many battles for him to figure it out. And even then, sometimes there's someone who he just can't let die, for whatever reason." Because he might understand that he couldn't save everyone, but he still wanted to, deep down.