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[Backdated April 28th] Frustrations - OTA

Alec found himself walking down the hall tense and unable to really form a coherent thought except a lot of swearing directed toward Peter. He hadn't expected to punch the kid - to really punch the kid. Even when they fought in the parking lot, Alec had held back. That punch - he had meant to hurt Peter. And then after, when he had he was pissed off that Peter hadn't defended himself.

In his walking as he dwelled on the events that just transpired, Alec saw the vending machine. That damn vending machine.

He closed the distance between him and it and then Alec began to punch it. Not the glass - that would be too easy - Alec punched the metal. The metal dented with each hit, his knuckles getting raw and bloody quickly from it.

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"Piano." He could hear Chapin in his mind. He swallowed hard, the words pushing through him tensely. "My objective was to gain her trust to steal intel. I got too close. We -" His fingers curled lightly into the fabric of her top as if he were holding onto her in to steady himself.

"It was my first undercover op. I'd never... been around a woman that wasn't a soldier before."

Corbie gave him a moment before she answered. "That must have been very confusing for you, that you liked her so much."

"I was ordered to like her.... I didn't expect her to tell me she loved me. Or for me to..." He hadn't excepted to return the feelings. His superiors definitely were not pleased when they inevitably found out either.

There was a long pause and he seemed to be holding his breath. There were things he hadn't even ever told Max.

"The day after we slept together, I was order to kill her and her father."

Love her back.

It was a big jump from collecting information to murder. Unless he was leaving something out, the timing was too convenient for that to have any real strategic purpose. Her hands tensed briefly, but then she made the tension leave her and continued to pet him.

"To punish you. That's fucked. That's completely fucked."

"They wanted to make an example out of her father for being a traitor." He paused. "And they wanted to make sure I could still do my job, after everything."

And he technically failed. Sure, he placed the explosives, but they had a back up denotation button and when he couldn't do it....

"I tried to warn her, but she was upset that I lied. She wouldn't go with me."

Somehow the words were coming out and he couldn't seem to stop them.

"They made sure I wouldn't make that mistake again."

Corbie could feel herself getting genuinely pissed off, but instead she translated that into holding Alec a little tighter. "I'm sorry. I can't imagine... that's fucking terrible."

Alec took a deep inhale and breathed in Corbie. Unlike the last time they shared a bed, he could actually take her in and not just her body. Somehow she felt very grounded.

Maybe he saw something of himself in Peter. He wasn't really sure why it mattered so much.

Corbie nuzzled him and, after a moment of quiet she found herself starting to hum. She wasn't sure what it was at first, though after a bit she realized it was something her gran used to sing to her when she was small.

It wasn't that she didn't have more questions, but she needed a minute to process all of this.

He had never been sung to and certainly never while in bed. He knew of stories were mothers sang to their child to go to sleep, but he had never seen the point of it until now. The sound of her humming was restful. It eased something inside of him, if only momentarily. Alec's body stilled, like one who was focusing entirely on the sound and on how her voice moved up and down to the melody.

Corbie continued to hum, in no particular hurry, until she came to the end of the song. Then she was just silent for a long moment. "That's a lot for a person to carry. And a lot to untangle. I'm sorry you have to." she said after a while. "Still, you should apologize to Peter, at the least."

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He sighed and sat up, as if the end if the song somehow broke the spell. He did, however, look more like himself than before.

Alec rubbed the back of his neck. "I know.... The kid makes that stuff hard." Because there were always follow up questions and talk about feelings and whining.

Corbie stretched her arms up over her head before she sat up, too. Her curls were mussed, but she didn't bother to smooth them. "He's a good kid." When he'd first arrived, all he'd worried about to her was the aunt he'd left behind and not wanting her to be alone. She couldn't believe he had a malicious bone in his body. "If he had the first clue he'd cut that deep, he'd be horrified."

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Legs hanging off the bed, Alec leaned on his thighs. "Which is why I won't tell him." Alec felt strangely protective of Peter. He wasn't sure why. It wasn't like they knew each other for long, but there was something about Peter that sparked protection in him.

That was actually kind of sweet. Corbie didn't have the heart to tease him about it, instead leaning over to kiss his cheek. "How you feeling?"

"Better." And less like punching things. Alec turned to look at her. "Thanks for... you know."

Corbie nodded and gave him a little smile. "Glad I could help."

This might have been the first time, ever, he was on or near a bed with a woman and it wasn't sexual. It was a little foreign to him.

Alec stood up. "I should, uh. Go see if the kid's alright." Probably.

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